answers...

This is from a magazine article I had read recently...

This is an interview with Dr Gabrielle Morrissey, a resident Phd. in Human Anthropology. Her field is that of human sexual relations but, from what I gather, she is more interested in relationships and connections.

She had this to say about her First Sex. Or, as I would put it, her first real relationship... the FIRST LOVE.





an excerpt from the article...

Her first relationship was characterized by honesty and commitment and lasted four years. As they were "high school sweethearts" in India, their understanding of the other's needs and experiences was unique. She lost her virginity to him at 17. Morissey speaks of this relationship with wistfulness; even her doctoral thesis concerned First Sex ("I have a big passion around it.") "We were very, very close," she says, "I was so ready that I presumed I pressured him into sex." When I entered this profession, he was like: Of course! I couldn't have asked for a better introduction to sexual expression. We created our own world through the relationship. Through him, I learned partnership.

Morissey may have underestimated the impact of her parents divorce. "I hit 20 and worried tgat I wasn't expressing enough freedom." Disconcertingly, she shifts to the present tense. "This is too much, too young - something's gonna go bust because we're gonna grow apart or we're gonna be so connected that we're gonna get married and this is all I'll have known and that can't be. I need to find an escape." Just as abruptly, she returns. "And sure enough," she simply says, "by 21 we'd broken up."





my thoughts...

"This is too much, too young - something's gonna go bust because we're gonna grow apart or we're gonna be so connected that we're gonna get married and this is all I'll have known and that can't be. I need to find an escape."

Over the past week, I've chewed this thought through a few dozen times. I've come to understand that we humans live on average a good 70 years. And, at about 20 something we often feel unbound and unrestricted. We all acheive our first taste of true freedom, with the accompanying responsibilities and possibilities.

We all want to see what the great big world has to offer us. We don't want to live our lives with regrets and one day wake up and say, "and this is all I'll have known."

We all want to fly and spread our wings.



I think this is the answer I am looking for.