Tuesday, July 12, 2005

to Christopher Keah

on his 23rd birthday





Happy Birthday...

it's my birthday once again
thanks to all my friends who called to wish me on this day
thanks for all the msn messages and the smses
to celebrate my existance in the world, the day I was born
thank you to my parents and my family
I love and cherish you all

so much I have learnt in my brief life
such a long journey ahead of me
I feel older
and I feel wiser
but, I now feel the weight of responsibility

it falls on me to look after myself
it's about my survival
enough money to spend
nice clothes to wear
a comfortable place to stay
to graduate and secure a good job
then build a career
maybe then, after... I may finally say, "I am stable and independant."





my reflections...

the past moments in between this birthday and the last
they has been rather painful
I have known true loss
I almost lost my sanity
almost threw everything I had acomplished away
yet, I have persevered and survived

I am still here today...

I have lost a piece of me
I decided to leave my relationship with Leanne
this is my closure
I'll admit that memories are hard to forget
Leanne Crystal Lim
I choose not to forget
but to assimilate them and learn from them
from you, I have good lessons learnt and fond memories remembered
maybe, maybe tomorrow...
maybe, maybe some other day...

I will try to learn from my experiences at SUBWAY
a sandwich consultant
I feel a little shameful that I am working a subservient job role
this is from a boy who had everything that his father could provide
ask and I would receive
because of my father's love
I have his promise that if he can provide, he will not deny me
well... times are rough now
finances are a little tight
but tomorrow will be a better day
this is a good opportunity to learn, work and be responsible
I am grateful for the opportunity

I have new friends
made a few good connections
heng tai
friendship as strong as brothers
I value you all and thank you for having me

good friends are also leaving me this period
they happen to be leaving Melbourne for their respective home countries
having completed their education abroad
Darren Teo, to Subang in Malaysia, in a week on the 22nd of July
Stephen Ooi, to Penang in Malaysia, tonight on the 12th of July
and Alvin Chan, to Hong Kong, sometime in August
well... good friends are a blessing
and great friendships are forever
may life give you all that you deserve
I shall miss your companionship
take care and God bless...

I have moved on...
I have a beautiful new girl in my life
her passion to live is infectious
though she is a touch manja and clingy
so cute when she is so... *teh*
but she is affectionate and I adore her
she makes me happy
and I am content
you know who you are... read this and smile for me, baby

I believe that there are again new lessons to be learnt
and new memories to be remembered
I am content to take it slow and watch how the relationship develops
'we'll take things slow, and see how things goes...'
love does grow





I refuse to live my life with regrets...

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

love you! e he he he he...