Wang Lee Hom - Heartbeat

Heartbeat 心跳
Lyrics/Composition: Wang Lee Hom (王力宏)

想跟我吵架 我没那麽无聊
Xiang gen wo chao jia Wo mei na me wu liao
You want to argue with me. Im not that bored.

不懂得道歉 我没那麽聪明
Bu dong de dao qian Wo mei na me cong ming
I apologize without understanding. Im not that bright.

好想要回到我们的原点
Hao xiang yao hui dao wo men de yuan dian
I desire to go back to where we began.

你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
Ni you zai ku qi Wo gei bu liao an wei
You are crying again. I fail to give you comfort.

我又在摇头 有那麽点後悔
Wo you zai yao tou You na me dian hou hui
Im shaking my head again (disapproving of my actions), thats that much regret.

爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
Ai qing de fa zhan yi nan hui tou que wu fa wang qian zou
Loves progression makes it already hard to turn back, but Im unable to move on.

但身不由己出现在胸口 两颗心能塞几个问号
Dan shen bu you yi chu xian zai xiong kou Liang ke xin neng sai ji ge wen hao
My body still wont leave because of what is currently in my chest. Two hearts can solve many problems.

爱让我们流多少眼泪
Ai rang wo men liu duo shao yan lei
How many tears has love made us shed?

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
Ni de yan shen chong man mei li dai zou de de xin tiao
Your eyes are brimming with beauty to carry away my heartbeat.

你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
Ni de wen rou ru ci kao jin dai zou wo de xin tiao
In this way, you draw closer to take away my heartbeat.

逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
Ni zhuan shi guang dao yi kai shi Neng bu neng gei yi miao
Time has turned back to the beginning. Can you give me a moment?

等着哪一天你也想起
Deng zhe na yi tian ni ye xiang qi
Im waiting for whatever day when you will also remember

那悬在记忆中的美好
Na xuan zai ji yi zhong de mei hao
That happiness hovering in your memories.

...

I am now waiting on the new year... 2009

Merry Christmas to everyone

it has been along year...

Christmas is a month away...

'Once again, we come to the Holiday Season, a deeply religious time that each of us observes, in his own way, by going to the mall of his choice.'

by Dave Barry

a design pattern

I got my NEW job as an analyst/programmer!



Anyway, I am very happy with my new career decision that I am reading up as much on Java as I can.
I was at my local Borders reading up on Java programming best practices and I got this from Better, Faster, Lighter Java by Bruce A. Tate, Justin Gehtland

How is this for a design pattern...

e=mc²

simplicity... sometimes the simplest answer is the best answer.

a new job

I start a new job today.

and hopefully... I will then have my better career prospects.

the last day at the bank

Today was the last day at the bank.

Today was my last day as a Conveyacing Officer for the Loan Processing Centre at the bank.

I will no longer be able to call myself family to the great team I was part of.
And, it is bittersweet the feeling of leaving.
My manager and team leader have both expressed that they value me and my daily contributions to the work and the team.
I was told that they "appreciated my work ethic" and that I will be missed.

On further discussion with myself, I actually am sad that I have left the bank.
I will admit that the work was mundane and boring.
But, the friends I have made were good and they accepted me as an important person of the team.
I felt that I did belong there and I really tried to contribute my weight.

I try my hardest everyday and put in 101% effort into everything that I do on the job.
I even stir my coffee a lil' faster during the breaks.
If I try my best everyday, there is not much else that anyone can ask more of myself.
And with that, I should be contented with my efforts.




I am... moving forward and not looking back.

a discussion with Nick Chong

You know... it's always nice when you have a good discussion with friends and you learn about yourself.



I have always liked how the saying goes, "No one knows you better than yourself".

But...

I also have come to know that because you are always with your own self (living, thinking and breathing everyday), you tend to get too familiar with yourself.
This familiarity makes a person neglect the deeper aspects of his/her own consciousness.

I think Nick was absolutely right when he pointed out that I have not been sincerely honest with myself.

His observations was that I am not the guy who does not really care (about not having a girlfriend).
He said that what I say and what I do are contradictory.
I've said before that I prefer to be single and that I enjoy the freedom and having time to myself.
He countered that when I was with Yen I really did care for her.
There was an evening I was out chilling with him and I said I was annoyed with her clinginess.
He noticed that I did finally buy lanterns and moonscakes in the end and went to see her.
I vaguely remembered that it was the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival and I had wanted to light lanterns and just walk around with her.

I guess that... I really do care...

Since Leanne... I do believe I have died a little inside.
In these past few years I have not completely acknowledged my true feelings that I have been a little lonely by myself.
It has been a simple life walking by myself, eating dinner alone and working hard at my job.
I have no one special special to share my joy, my frustrations or someone to rest my weary self with.
The girls that I have been with and the women who have broken my heart, I have been afraid with myself.
I don't think I did ever let any of you into my heart...

satisfy my physical desires and you have me for the night.
catch my imagination and my curiosity will follow you for the week.
touch my feelings and I will be your companion for the year.

but...

if you hold my hearts of heart, I am yours for a lifetime and the day after.

I am scared that if I ever let anyone else into my heart of hearts, I might have this piece of glass shattered yet again.
It's the pain of a broken relationship that I cannot bear.
I think I am hesitant to let anyone into myself because, the fear of the relationship not surviving is there.
I loathe the pain of severing the threads that bind and untangling the mess that is my emotions/thoughts after.



I guess that I am not... 真正的快樂

五月天 - 你不是真正的快樂

Mayday - You Are Not Truly Happy
Music and Lyrics by Ashin



人群中哭著　妳只想變成透明的顏色
Crying in the crowd, you just want to become invisible

妳再也不會夢或痛或心痛了　
You won’t dream, or ache, or be brokenhearted

妳已經決定了　妳已經決定了
You’ve decided, you’ve already decided



你靜靜忍著　緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
You quietly endure, tightly grasping yesterday in your fist

而回憶愈是甜就是愈傷人　
And the sweeter the memories the more they hurt

愈是在手心留下密密麻麻深深淺淺的刀割
The more they leave numerous and profound cuts in your hand



你不是真正的快樂　你的笑只是妳穿的保護色
You’re not truly happy, your smile is just a disguise you wear

妳決定不恨了　也決定不愛了　
You’ve decided not to hate, and decided not to love

把妳的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
Your soul forever locked away



這世界笑了　於是妳合群的一起笑了
This world laughs, and so you laugh along with everyone

當生存是規則不是妳的選擇　
As though survival is a requirement, not your choice

於是妳含著眼淚飄飄盪蕩跌跌撞撞的走著
And so in tears you drift and stumble on



你不是真正的快樂　你的笑只是妳穿的保護色
You’re not truly happy, your smile is just a disguise you wear

妳決定不恨了　也決定不愛了　
You’ve decided not to hate, and decided not to love

把妳的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
Your soul forever locked away



你不是真正的快樂　你的傷口不肯完全的癒合
You’re not truly happy, your wounds are unwilling to be completely healed

我站在妳左側卻像隔著銀河　
I stand beside you but it’s like we’re separated by a galaxy,

難道緊緊的抱著遺憾一直到老了　然後再後悔著
Will you tightly hold your remorse until you’ve grown old, and then still regret



妳值得真正的快樂　妳應該脫下妳穿的保護色
You deserve true happiness, you should pull off that disguise you wear

為什麼失去了　還要被懲罰呢　
Why after loss must you also be penalized

能不能就讓悲傷全部結束在此刻　重新開始活著
Can you let your agony end at this moment, and start to live again

Best Mistake I’ve Ever Made

by Joanna Wang

One step too far
All at once I’m falling
Just like a star
I’m burning for you
Thought I could keep myself from feeling this way
I guess that was my first mistake

Cause suddenly I’m walking
Down a dark street to your door
Wanting you is driving me insane

And now my feet are standing
Where they’ve never stood before
Guided by a twist of fate

If I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I won’t be afraid
Cause even if my heart should break
You’d be the best mistake I ever made

I’m in your room
Now there’s no denying
What’s in your eyes
When I look at you
Two shadows talking but they don’t make a sound
Words have lost their meaning now

And the air has turned electric
Now I know the time is right
To put myself into your hands

And suddenly I’m shaking
As your fingers touch my skin
I don’t need to understand

But If I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I won’t be afraid
Cause even if my heart should break
You’d be the best mistake I ever made

And if tomorrow proves me wrong
I swear I don’t belong
I know I’ll carry on

So I will lose myself and bare my soul
Take this chance cause heaven knows
I’m so far gone and my choice is made
And even if my heart should break

When I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I’ll always say
You’re the best mistake I ever made
You’re the best mistake I ever made
You’re the best mistake I ever made

a lil mistake?

I have learnt a few things about myself.
I have come to know I am not the arrogant, careless swagger of youth on the prowl on the Friday evenings.
I have feelings and am able to feel empathy for those I leave behind.
And yet, we sometimes must "leave behind" as not to diminish ourselves.

It does makes me uneasy... this strange, strange guilt.

I still will not tolerate mediocrity in either aspects of my life.
The difference is that now I weigh my decisions and will act on my prudence.
I think I may have traded in my flint-edge impulsiveness and have exchanged it for a more tempered ambition.
I have learned to accept things I cannot change for the way things are.
I now wonder if this is called maturity?

I also have new justification about a few things I had already known about myself.
I cannot suffer a clingy girlfriend...

I know... Hah!

It's the big cliche about how men cannot commit.
It is not like I do not want to commit, but to come to find the right fit with someone is like looking for a needle in a haystack.
The world's population is estimated to be about 7.0 billion, as of September 2008, and I am looking for that special someone God made to fit me.
It seems every other person whom I meet who interests me has a characteristic that has been a relationship deal-breaker (at least to me).

I had loved and lost... twice!
And, to reflect now on how that feeling of love was pale and shallow.

I have danced with a nymphette and chased her all around town.
I had met lovely, witty and was told she had already met somebody.
I dined with a friend and we both agreed we were not meant to be... and, some days she still calls me.
I fell down with ordinary and heard her unambitious ambitions.
I had coffee with maturity and she shared her life stories.
I then ran carefree through the park with effervescence and we laughed together with child-like glee.
An old-flame caught up with me and I was surprised to how she had blossomed.
I've suffocated through clingy and I threw in the towel.

I need freedom to move around in my life.
And yet, I want someone to love and to be loved.



Ah well, whatever works!

[ IF ]

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!


--Rudyard Kipling

how many hard yards to a wiseacre?

the focus on Customer Service

I went for a training session with the bank (Which bank? The Commonwealth Bank... haha) today.
It was largely a sales and service seminar where they introduced communication and people interaction concepts but in a view to customer service.
And, during the course, I had learned a few interesting things.



1. You will sometimes fail

It seems that you will never get to please everyone no matter how fast you rush, how hard you work or how accurate you are.
And, that by listening and understanding your clients, it will never always mean that you will come to an agreement.



2. A Positive Attitude

The fact of the service industry (and a significant portion of life) is largely affected and effected by your attitude.
You may the cheerful and friendly guy at the bank, but do a half-baked job.
You will still get more credit due than the are surly and negative guy who does excellent work.
This is because your negativity works against you, and that the client will discount all your effort and hard work.
It's like the client going off and asking himself, "What the heck?"



3. ...dealing with difficult clients

When dealing with annoying or angry customers, there is not much you are able to do gain your measure of satisfaction from the situation.
Why?
This is very simply answered by the phrase, 'the customer is always right'.

What you are able to do is able to be tidily summarized as a perception shift.

The training session referred to this situation as the Aikido Principle.
It is where you take the moral high ground and to detach yourself from the angry words, insults, etc. and be objective with the client.
Then you should be apologetic, empathic and then as helpful as you are able to be by offering workable solutions.
After all, it is rather hard to be annoyed with someone who is bending over backwards trying to help you.



All in all, a very useful session in my personal development.

problem with lazy sunday mornings

I had an sms from Sherls this morning.
She was looking for some friends to have a Sunday breakfast/brunch session with.
Unfortunately I could not make it as it was a laaaaaaaaaaa~zy Sunday morning.

I was able to reply though...

"Arrangements for breakfast should be made the day prior, as to guarantee that I will be awake, coherent or, at the very least, present to your early morning appointment."

I still need alot of work on this whole sunrise/morning thing.